Good day mates!

Wow, it has been a really long time since I last updated my blog with a proper written post! From where I had left off, so much had happened since then. Let's see, my last proper blog post was in March 2013.....

2013.

What I thought to be the best year that I ever had. Well, only the first half. Because during the second half, a lot of unhappy stuff happened. It seemed a lot but it was actually only one unhappy thing. But due to the effect of that particular incident, the aftershock I had was unbearable. The pain, the sad emotions, empty feelings and memories.... It was terrible. What happened exactly? It is rather a trick question. Because until today, I still ponder over that exact same question. I could only answer part of the question. My friends, supposedly my 'best friends' left me without a proper explanation. They just left me alone. Imagine this, you were friends with these two people, spent almost everyday of the week together, doing things together and then suddenly, they decided that they no longer want to associate with you, and they just leave you by yourself to deal with the aftermath, all alone with no other person beside you because those two were your closest friends.... Can you imagine the pain I felt throughout the remaining second half of the year? I had to see them both in school each day because we were in the same college, and knowing that we were not as close as before because God knows what had happened as they did not tell me the exact reason why they suddenly did not want to involve me in anything they did. I went into a slump. I was constantly feeling angry and sad and felt really lost.

But I got back up on my feet.

I was so sick and tired of the constant silent treatment and awkwardness, I just told myself to forget about. Don't bother trying to salvage our friendship when they clearly did not want to be friends with you. So I started to clear those uneasy feelings away and moved on.

I have never felt better.

A new year came, I went to a different institution, made new friends, connect with old ones, got better results, passed my first year and went to Japan!

In late January 2015, my popo whom I love so much passed away from cancer.

And now, here I am in UK. What seems like a lifelong dream for everyone to study abroad. Never in my life had I thought that I could get a chance to study in the UK. Of course, it was in the back of my mind once when I was in KDU. At that time, I planned to do the UOL programme and was aiming for a King's College scholarship to continue my second year there. But I bailed out at the last moment when I found out the course was tough. Not like UKT was easy as well, but the subjects were partially assignment based, hence it was easier than UOL. How ironic though, now in Cardiff University, three quarter of the modules I took are all examination based..... Plus, I just submitted my application to be part of the ICMS and KPUM organization. I may not get in.... depending on how well I do at the interview. But if I did get in, I'l probably suffer from depression with the amount of workload I will have. But it's okay. I WILL PULL THROUGH AND GET THROUGH THIS AND STILL CAN GET FIRST CLASS or SECOND UPPER CLASS HONOURS.